7thsign

Still plugging away.. it's been awhile. I miss my 3d Studio Max... but it dont run on my mac
I am in the process of learning Blender.. but not a big fan at the moment.

I hate my life.. i wanna die....

I would like to know how many people or who has bought my artwork. I have sold over 60 something posters since DAprints came out. I would love to know whom has bought them, and if I could have a picture of it on your wall or what not. That would be so bad ass. It seems my abstract sells better then my realist renders. That is kind of a bummer. It takes me so much longer to do the realistic renders and to be honest they are my favs lol. Oh well. Anyways, i am trying to get into breed at the moment. They want to see 3 more realistic renders, so I am working on a suicide scene. Bottle of pills, note, and desktop items. It should be smooth when I am done. Other than that I do not know what to create.

I got a new tattoo. Once it heals, i will probably take a picture with my new digi cam, so you ladies can check me out.

Im in a better mood now, my girlfiend and I seem to be on the right track. We got our own crib now, and hopefully my new puppy will calm down.

I still am not to motivated to remake my website. Every design I do is been subpar. I should have never upgraded to Photoshop 7. Upgrades suck.. Like 3d Max 4 to 5.. Tish tish.

I need to get my hands on a copr of Poser 4 or 5 if there is one now. I loved that program.

Ahhh, I hate my life ohhh so stinkin much... Cant do art... try to make myself... but can't get my mind to work. To much stress, to much agony.. just want to drink and watch tv.

My site is down. Damn hst went under. I should be getting new host soon, and hopefully if i can get my self to work , i will make a new website.

I have not touched my art computer in 3 months. I don't understand it. I have lost my pation. I have lost my desire to here my "fans" view my work. That was never an issue... come or go i always seemed to love to make... to create.. I have lost that... I hope i get it back. I think i am just sad about the progress of my life... and i think the stress of my life makes me to tire to be insired... i will try ot pump out some emotionaless crap.... but that's not who i am... that not what i should be known as. if only you could see who i was... who i want to be... One day you will know... i love you all..... i wish one day to come back to who i am.....i wish.... one day you all will give me the praise that i once so desperatly craved.... how merger of me... how vain.... once i get my shit together .... please imbrace me as a friend,..... i have so few... i lack so many...